i wanna go back to updating this site more frequently. i feel like i've been losing the few, mostly inconsequential routines i had everyday and it makes me very sad. depression makes having discipline feel like such a difficult task.. i hate it.

going back to therapy gives me a little bit of hope. maybe i'll propose that she gives me things to do between each appointment ? that way i feel at least some pressure to get stuff done.

i've been very distracted playing tomodachi life.. i just love seeing my ocs running around and being stupid. they are basically the only thing bringing me joy at this point.

local58 is back !!! i'm looking forward to what they have in store. i also really miss gemini home entertainment, my personal favorite analog horror series.

i'm thinking of taking tomorrow as a new starting point. truth is, i yearn to find more interests. i want to know more. if i could, i'd love to be one of those girls with their cute notion where everything is organized.

i'm really anxious about my loved ones dying. i can't get the feeling off of my head. it's torture.

just noticed i forgot to change the date in the last entry lol

i'm going to therapy tomorrow !! haven't been there in a little bit more than a year, i had some issues with the insurance company but it should be fine now. hopefully i can get some guidance, at least.

i bought some hair removal cream and i spent the entire afternoon/evening making a mess.. love being hairless though. yay

i've been posting on socials abt it but i really love the wha anime so far. incredible animation and voice acting and music and composition and everything else.

i'm still holding a little skepticism out of fear of being uzumakied again, but so far it's all cool.

i published my tiny website experiment !! it's the start of something cool, hopefully. i also reintroduced my ocs for the millionth time on twt/ig and this time i got more attention and interactions than usual ♡ very happy. i love my ocs very much.

i was watching one of jacksfilms' recent videos reacting to some of his old stuff for the channel's 20th anniversary and he offhandedly mentioned having no sense of time in his early twenties, going to sleep at 5am and waking up at 12, stuff like that.

hearing that was kind of comforting tbh.... like i knoww it's not good and i really have to fix my sleep schedule, but hearing someone i admire at least a little bit say that he went through the same thing was nice. thanks jack

hey !!!!! sorry i've been inactive again. i'm working on a little experiment for a website ! maybe i'll link to it here when it's done.

i went to visit someone i lost last year at their grave. i really miss them.

ppl have been posting their love live/idol ocs on twitter and i'm soooo happy. i love to see them. very cute.